minxycat added an entry about lose weight : B: mean green, 1/4 cup raw oats L: rice and beans, coleslaw, snap beans S: cottage cheese, cheese stick D: 3 slices homemade thin crust veggie pizza S: mean green I was craving protein and fat today, maybe because I didn’t have nuts and fish oil in the AM. By the time I got home I was ravenous and tore into the cottage cheese, then the cheese stick. Next time I’ll have the mean green and fish oil to curb my appetite before dinner. Still o.k. but I should have got by on just 2 slices of pizza. It’s tricky eating enough so that I’m satisfied, but still cutting back enough to lose weight. Just before dinner when I really wanted to just start my usual non-stop snacking I could hear that evil little voice start to creep up on me. It said, “you’re not that fat. You look pretty good. Anyway, you’ve got a husband and two kids, who cares if your not thin?” Well it’s like any addiction, we just need to say #! #*x%x you! you evil little voice. You’re not in control here, I am and I’m going to lose weight because I want to!! Last night, by the time I got to bed my stomach was empty and I could tell I wouldn’t be able to sleep if I didn’t eat something. I ate a small amount of cottage cheese and it did the trick. Much better than a bowl of peanuts. Starting tomorrow, my new thing is having fish oil before dinner to curb my appetite. It’s high calorie, but since I’m taking it anyway I might as well use it as a appetite suppressant. The good news is I figured if I can lose just two pounds average every week from now till summer I will have reached my high end goal weight of 130. I don’t know if that will get me into those pink cords or not. If not I’ll keep going. It’s not that I care so much about those particular pants but they are symbolic in that I bought them right when I was starting my slow gain with the intention of losing a few pounds in order to fit into them. HA! Instead I kept gaining, even before my knee surgery I look back at pictures and yes, I was very toned from running but I wasn’t really thin like I was before I got married. Well, I’m so glad I’m doing this. As I was looking at my naked butt this morning I thought, “Holy, how did this happen. I am not a babe. I have a wide butt. A big, wide, butt.” :-) OMG